Savannah Chrisley had “so many regrets” when ex-bracket Nicolas Kerdiles died in 2023 (exclusively)

There was so much left between Holy Savanna And her ex-bracket Nic dwarf before his unclear death.

“I was really heartbroken, destroyed,” Chrisley knows best Alum, 27, tells people exclusively. “I had so many regrets about things I had said publicly, and things I wish I could have apologized for and only conversations like Nic and I never had to have.”

Chrisley started dating Kerdiles at the end of 2017. The couple Was engaged 2019 but they later canceled the wedding and commitment 2020. They officially broke up on September.

Kerdiles, a former hockey player turned real estate agent, died in September 2023 at the age of 29. His death was the result of a motorcycle accident.

Savannah remembers getting a call about the news when she landed from a flight to Pensacola, Florida to visit her father Todd Chrisley, who is currently serving a federal prison for bank fraud and tax evasion. When her friend delivered the new, Savannah remembers: “I shook and cried. I’m like,” I have to come home. I have to get home. ”

The Unlocked Podcast values ​​say she “continued to send him, and I was like:” Tell me that it’s not true. Please. You’re okay, right? “

“The messages went through. So I was like,” Okay, maybe they are just wrong. He’s okay. “Because it still showed delivered. Daddy (Todd). I can’t leave here without saying to him: ‘Because he and Nic were best friends. So I went and said to my dad. I went in, and he just knew automatically, and I just broke down. ”

“He knew something was wrong. And he was just destroyed and heartbroken. And we sat there and we cried all day together. Chloe and Grayson were with me,” she adds and referred to her younger siblings, both of whom are under her care while Todd and her mother Julie Chrisley are in prison.

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The tragic moment occurred early in her relationship with now-boyfriend Robert Shiver. “Robert and I started dating (August 17, 2023, and Nic died later in September,” she says.

“When you go and visit (people in jail) you have no phones. You don’t allow any electronics. Before I went in, I just texted Robert, and I just said: ‘Nic died.’ That’s all I said, ”she says. “Keep in mind that we had met for a month and when it happened Robert was enough for my publicist Alexa and my best friend Tyler, and was like,” Hello guys, how do I show up for her? I don’t know what to say.

Savannah says that Shiver, a former football player who is now working at an insurance company, came on a plane and flew to Pensacola.

“He was there when I came out of visit and he sent me a text and said,” Hi, I just want you to be here. I have your food and I just want to get you home. “And he took me and the kids home, she says.

“I had pictures of that day by he and Chloe who played rock, paper, scissors on the plane. And when we got home I said:” I just want to go where it happened. I just have to see it myself, “” she says. Shiver drove her to the crash site.

“When we went to leave we stood at the stop sign, and Robert goes up next to me, and he goes,” Hello, do you mind if I say a prayer for Nic and his family? “And at that moment I was like,” This is the kind of person you want to spend the rest of your life with, “she says.” Someone who shows up for you and shows up for you, in such situations. ”

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“I mean, I also mourn the loss of someone I loved by all my heart. As much as we went through many S — together, Nic and I did,” she continues. “And after a few weeks I said to Robert, I was like: ‘I promise I will stop talking about it. I just have to go through my process.’ And Robert’s exact words were: “You were not my first love and I wasn’t yours, but we can be each other’s last.”

Savannah notes that at that moment she “just saw the emotional maturity in him and how he appeared and how he could easily have run.”

“This is a month into us dating. Just as he shows up on a daily basis and what kind of father he is and how he controls people through all the difficulties and adversities. It’s just (he is the best friend (and ) teammate that you want. ”