Naya Rivera’s ex Ryan Dorsey says they considered getting another baby after divorce 2018 (exclusively)

When Ryan Dorsey asked what he wishes he could tell his late ex-wife Naya Rivera On the set on his people shoot in Malibu, California, on February 3 he takes a long break to think.

“I wish it would have worked,” says the actor, 41, finally, tears well in the eyes. “I wish we could have worked out everything, had some children, lived happily all the time. But that’s not how life works for everyone.”

Dorsey’s life turned completely around July 8, 2020, when Rivera drowned at 33 While swimming off a rental boat with its Son JoseyNow 9, in Lake Piru in Ventura County, California for five days, searched search and rescue divers for Rivera.

“It was the worst five days of my life,” says Dorsey. “It was a fear, what if we can’t find her? It was just horrible.”

The search ended on July 13, when Rivera’s body was found in a remote part of the lake. Even as the five -year anniversary to Joy The star’s death is approaching this summer, Dorsey reminders still say everywhere.

“We have pictures up in the house, pictures at Josey’s bed … I still can’t really look at them,” he says. “Time, they say, make it easier, but I don’t know. I think it just makes it easier to go on your day without thinking about it every hour. When it first happened it was like every hour, every minute you” Thinking about it. ”

Dorsey and Rivera’s love story began during a night out in 2010. Rivera’s Joy costs Heather Morris Approaching him and said, “My friend (Naya) thinks you’re cute. Go talk to her.”

“I’m not the approaching type of guy,” says Dorsey. “So Naya finally went up and said,“ What’s your name? “That’s how we started talking.”

Over the years, Rivera and Dorsey dated on and off, but “when we were apart, I always thought of her,” he says. “I thought she was someone I could get married, because we were just so stupid and we got each other.”

“We would make these different voices and we had these nicknames for each other, and we would rap and freestyle and just do stupid things,” he continues. “When things were good they were really good. When time goes by, you remember more of the good times than any other drama.”

They officially resumed their romance after Rivera was shared from her ex-bracket, rapper Big Seanin April 2014.

“The girl I talked to would always see these headlines or pay attention to TMZ, and she knew about our story, so she was like,” Oh, did you see what happened to your girl? “, Reminds Dorsey.” I forget what the drama was, but I handed out. I sent an e -mail message, “Hi, I saw this happening. I hope you are doing well. She replied,” Where are you? ” We met and eaten dinner, and it was a type of catalyst for us who started meeting again. ”

They got married on July 19, 2014, Dorsey’s birthday, and when they found out they were pregnant with Josey, “I jumped up and started crying,” remembers Dorsey.

Things took a rocky turn in their relationship in 2016 when Rivera applied for divorce but received the application for dismissed months later. 2017 was Rivera arrested and accused of wrongdoing the domestic battery After she allegedly met Dorsey while taking Josey, then 2, for a walk. She applied for divorce for a second time shortly after, and the accusation was rejected at Dorsey’s request.

“It was a monumental disaster,” says Dorsey, who plans to share more information about the arrest in an upcoming memoir.

Even after their divorce, “we went back and forth and played houses,” says Dorsey. “We would try to get a new baby and all things. We went to Maui to look at places and get another start, and then we fell out again … If I knew what I know now, I would have tried to do things differently to make it work. ”

When he navigates in life without Rivera, Dorsey is focused on being strong for Josey.

“I try to be the best parent I can be and raise a good little man,” he says. “He gives me a reason to continue with my life.”