DC Plane Crash Victim’s sister wants to give her “a last hug” (exclusive)

• Sarah Best was one of 67 people killed in the DC flight crash on January 29
• Here, her sister Jessica Haynes remembers her life – as a sibling and aunt, a wife, as a teacher, as a lawyer – and the legacy she leaves behind after
• “What I just want you to know is that she is so special,” says Haynes

There are temporary moments, in days since Washington, DC, flight crash that killed her little sisterWhen Jessica Haynes’ boundless grief slides into something almost like acceptance.

And then comes a memory – some reminder, big or small, if the millions of ways Sarah had best changed her life; Even just see The wild robot on streaming and remembering how her sister had recommended the movie – and Whole unthinkable tragedy Immediately beats her again.

“I don’t know why she’s gone,” Haynes tells People. “It’s not meaningful.”

Best, 33, was the youngest of three sisters, after Haynes and Jennifer the best, the oldest. She, Haynes and their mom have birthdays just one day apart.

A native in Clarksville, Tenn., Best graduation when her high school Valedictorian and then sum Cum Laude from Vanderbilt University where her husband, Daniel Solomon, now works as a lecturer.

She went on be a high school teacher in Tennessee and recently, was a lawyer in Washington, DCAfter graduation from the University of Pennsylvania Law School.

“What I just want you to know is that she is so special,” Haynes says. “She was the world for my family. We love her so, so much. ”

It was best to return from Wichita, can., On a work trip when the passenger beam she was collided, in the air, with an army helicopter just outside Ronald Reagan National Airport when the plane prepared to land late on Wednesday, January 29.

All 67 people, including the three soldiers at the helicopter, are believed to have died and marked the worst aviation disaster in America for more than 20 years.

The cause of the crash remains during investigation, with questions raised about the crew of the helicopter made some kind of mistake.

Best’s family is allowed to live without her – and trying to make it impossible to suit her life, her success and her joy, her hopes and dreams, to some quotes and memories. (Solomon, Best’s husband, tells people that he is not yet ready to give an interview.)

“Yesterday we had an argument among our family about why did they take her?” says Haynes, 35. “It would be better if it was one of us, because she was the one who affected everyone.”

“I can’t even do her justice. I can’t even talk about how amazing she is, “says Haynes, adding,” even doing this interview with you, I can’t even tell you how good she is. It makes me so sad. ”

“This is the most painful that a human being can go through, especially I have just thought of myself, because it is so painful for me and my older sister, but then my dad too, my mom, it is their little baby, “Says Haynes.

No heading would be long enough for Best’s life; No story long enough to suit her family’s love. But they will try anyway.

She was “super, super smart”, says her sister, even though it barely repairs the surface: “She was so, so selfless. … for ten years (after getting married) she did not go on a honeymoon because everything she did Be to work, work, work, work, says Haynes.

“She wanted to change the world and she could have,” she says best. “She could really have.”

An associated at the DC lawyer agency Wilkinson Stekloff, best “wanted to speak for those who had no voice, especially in education and immigration,” says Haynes. More recently, says Haynes, Best had liked to settle in her apartment in the country’s capital: “She would send us all these pictures and be like,” Do you like this sofa? “And she was just so excited about her apartment.

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In high school, a teacher once compared best with a “shark in the pond,”

“But more than this was Sarah unusually perceptive, empathetic and supportive“Said their older sister, Jennifer, a doctor who specializes in otolaryngology, in a written tribute.

“In high school, when I was stressed to study for tests, she took good luck and taped them to my bedroom door during the night so I could see them in the morning,” said Jennifer about Sarah. “When everyone in our family believed that Jessica, a mid -sister, was a hopeless problem maker, she stood up for her and gave her unconditional love.”

Jennifer actually recalled, “Until the day she died, my sisters and I texted each other in our group thread, which we did every day, several times a day and even as the youngest of us, she always provided Sage advice. ”

Haynes, who now lives in Bentonville, ark., Simply says: “She was my patron.”

In a quirk of fate, Haynes’ daughter, Aria, was named Best.

“I had a hard time thinking about a name. I couldn’t think of any name. And then I broke the ankle when I was 38 weeks pregnant, Haynes explains. “And then we had to schedule a C-section. Sarah and I, we had already made a promise that if my child was born on February 21, which is her anniversary, then we would name her ‘Aria.’ ”

See and see: “I broke my ankle and the doctor was like,” okay, we have to schedule the C-section on February 21st. ”

As for the name itself, “The reason she chose Aria was that she loved to do crosswords with her husband, and Aria was the first word she learned for New York Times Crossword puzzles, says Haynes.

The name is twice important: “Aria means” air “. It also means an independent part of an opera, says Haynes.” So it emphasizes both independence and standing alone and is also a greater part of a composition. ”

Jennifer, their sister, also recently gave birth to a son named June.

“The last time I got to meet her personally was when she threw my baby shower in August,” Jennifer said in her written tribute. “She arises the event. I was so proud when guests who just met her briefly told me how brilliant and amazing she was and that they have never met anyone like her.

“It was her idea to get our guests to draw and write messages for June’s first ABC book. She would come out in the spring to meet him. We already had Facetime, and she sang him cradles through the phone. ”

June will never meet his “incredible Aunt Sarah and he will not realize how much of a loss this is, because there really is no one like her,” Jennifer said.

“But I will tell him about her, I will show her the art she has left behind,” said Jennifer, “and I will be the better person she has always encouraged us to be.”

More recently, Haynes has been returned to an old gift from the best – a homemade book, of sorting, with a sweet and Sassy title: Jessica Best’s personal book with wise words, advice and inspirational quotes to get her through anything (A collection of words created by her favorite sister, Sarah Best).

Different sections include “ego boosters” and “how love should be”, a whole list of “the most beautiful sentences in literature” and chapters on “useful benefits you may need” and “a letter to my future spouse” (plus “a letter because when you’re a dumbass ”).

“That’s what she puts in there, just like small things to get me through life, small advice,” says Haynes.

So “when she died,” says Haynes, “I thought there might be something there to help me get through her death. I don’t know.”

Unfortunately, life is not always so good.

Still, Haynes says, by browsing through the book “I can hear her voice when I read all the little things she wrote here and … she speaks in a way no one else speaks.”

“I can’t believe I’m her sister. … I just want her back so badly. ”

She has been beaten by the words from a friend to Best’s, who wrote on social media that “those who never met you have a greater loss than I will ever be.”

“And I think it’s true,” Haynes says. “I dropped her, but I got to know her.”

In the middle of grief it has been a bit of good news. Best’s body has been identified, which means that her family can take her home.

“We can actually go and give her a hug,” says Haynes.

“That’s all I’ve wanted,” she says of her sister. “You die when someone dies. You just want to give them one last hug. So I can do it. ”